The unimaginable happens
And you hear it in her voice
And I, I'm chosen to give her hope.
To fix what seems can never be restored.
But me?
Who am I to enter such a chamber?
Love. Does it really have power
To the one who believed a love that brought hate.
A heart shredded in two
Pieces that shriveled to be forgotten.
Yet I see a speck.
Hope in her eyes that maybe.
Maybe there is love.

"...to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair....instead of their shame my people will receive a double portion, and instead of disgrace they will rejoice in their inheritance; and so they will inherit a double portion in their land, and everlasting joy will be theirs"
Isaiah 61:3,7

Week one of Half Marathon Training

Go Zebras!

The Journey to the Promise Land

The Journey included walking through the Wilderness to possess the Promise Land.

Yet the Wilderness was not without His presence and provision - a cloud and pillar of fire to guide their steps - to keep them cool in the day and warm at night.

But they grumbled and wanted to go back to Egypt. To slavery. To a place where the heavy loads would never cease.

How often do we follow their example? We want to go back to relying on our own strength, reputation, and finances, rather than resting and trusting in God's provision, presence, and love. Yet by depending on ourselves, we create unwanted stress, worry, and fear. We tirelessly strive to get out from under this heavy burden, but the moment God brings us to a place where we must rely on Him, we beg Him to allow us to go back. Yet God knows that when we learn to trust Him, it brings us the greatest freedom we could ever have.

May we believe that He WILL sustain us in the Wilderness, and that we will find FREEDOM in letting go of control.

Moses' Song

I'm on a journey
And I don't know where I'm headed
But I'll keep a walkin'
Until you show me the Promise Land.

Feelin' lost and confused
Oh wait, I am lost... lol (did Moses say LOL?)
And I'm tired of walkin'
Cause it feels you forgot me here.

I'm on a journey
And I don't know where I'm headed
But I'll keep a walkin'
Until you show me the Promise Land.

The sun has left me parched
And my feet are a hurtin'
The crew behind me
Keep a mumblin...

I'm on a journey
And I don't know where I'm headed
But I'll keep a walkin'
Until you show me the Promise Land.


~Part of the lyrics to a song that Moses probably sang for a couple of years.

(This is still in it's rough draft form....)

Run for the Dream

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Run for the Dream

Today. Today I started training for a half marathon. This is crazy, even for myself. However, my life has already changed drastically in the past month...I was told that I could not work at my job after June 1 and my boyfriend and I broke up all within a week apart. I've started looking for jobs all over the state of Virginia. The concept of moving within 3 months is still mind-blowing, as I feel like I just got settled into Newport News. My heart feels raw and is aching, struggling to believe that I can't mess up God's plan.

Soooo...when my friend Jenn asked me if I was interested in running a half marathon, I thought to myself, "I've got nothing to lose!" And so it began. My faith has definitely been tested in these past couple of weeks, and God is showing me that I need more endurance in trusting Him! I lack stamina in this area when I begin to believe that I have to make everything work! I figured the idea of training for a race ran (no pun intended) parallel with continually and constantly placing my life in His hands...it requires endurance that is still lacking! Just like in a race, when I'm so tired and weary... I must continually choose to put one foot in front of the other and TRUST that God will catch me when I fall. Here's to God teaching me to trust Him in ALL things, despite when I can't see the finish line!

"Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing." James 1:2-4